Good morning and Happy New Year.
2013 in review was definitely a good year. Well… a lot of dreams came true – like living in Japan going back and forth to Japan and a lot more. I really enjoyed 2013! I also made a lot of good lifelong friends, weeded out most of the people I dont need in my life and focused on what mattered to me at that moment.
In 2013, I learned who my real friends are and who my acquaintances and fairweather friends are. I am lucky, I can count them within my fingers. People who I can really trust, who I can truly open up to, who will not judge me and who will truly care for me. In 2013 I got to know who I really am, what I want and what I need in my life. it was a year of learning how to let go of things that just hurt me and a year of being alone and getting to know ME more.
In 2013, I got to know my GOD. I got to know how to love myself and him. But, it wasn’t easy — because the people who I thought would lead me to him, led me to feel isolated. This led to a few months of feeling lost and feeling lonely. In fact, I ended 2013 battling depression – that feeling of not really mattering to anyone anymore. That feeling of not belonging.
But I knew I was stronger than that, I battled through my thoughts with prayers. And although, I lost my ability to draw —well, not really lose but I felt like I couldn’t draw the way I want to because my confidence which I worked so hard for was stripped from me. I knew I wasnt totally back to zero.
This year, I will journey to:
- Show everyone who I really am and show them that I can achieve things I have been talking about for years.
- I will study and pass the JLPT exams (probably N4) — I hope if not N5
- I will lose weight and keep it off. Show those naysayers that they are wrong.
- I will connect only with people who matter to me.
- I will get to know CHRIST more in a personal level, because he is all I need.
These few things, I have discovered that my word of the year, is FOCUS. I need to focus on the things that matter and keep away from things that will draw me away from myself. I need to tackle things one step at a time
So I started my 2014 by enrolling in a Japanese language class to prepare for my exam. I also started my Herbalife diet. And lets hope I survive. Its not going to be an easy year, a year of adjustment, I have to finish things for work and find my real PURPOSE and FOCUS. But God will reveal it to me in HIS time.
I am hopeful this year. As I am every new year, but more realistic. I think with elbow grease, I canr eally make it.
On Fandom: I started a new one.
I have finished OOO and Fourze and adored it. I am going through Den-O and HONESTLY, young Sato Takeru makes me smile he is adorable. My sister demands Wizard and people have recommended W. I will soon blah about this! <3
Btw, I miss NEWS, whats going on with them? Jyannis too?
AH well... I will get off my depmode and become more positive. I need to blog more too... AND WRITe.